27 February 2013

...in which we say Good-Bye for now.

So it appears I haven't been around this space much lately. I know this partly because the date of my late post glares at me every time I check this page (in truth, only to check my list on the side to see if other people are more active with their blogs than myself) and partly because people I know who also read this blog have been ragging on me to write something new. I'd like to apologize, I really would, but in truth my heart just hasn't been on writing as of late. Sure, I could bore you with half assed posts where I was just writing for the sake of writing but it would bore you and it would bore me. All I've been left with really is guilt. Guilt for not keeping up. Guilt for hiding away so long I've lost ¾ of my previous readers. Guilt on my life not appearing to be as interesting as it was. Guilt guilt guilt-ity guilt.

 I wish I could say why I haven't felt like writing. In all honestly, I've been out of sorts on the whole in the last recent months. The move is finally over. We unpacked the very last of our overseas boxes last week as my dad (the cabinetry genius) finally finished the entertainment center I asked him to build for me as a Christmas present. I think I might have some sort of post-expat depression going on. Things are remarkably the same as they were two years ago when I last lived here. The kid and the lack of working are the only differences. I sometimes forget that I ever lived in England at all. It's only been five months since our return but it might as well have been something I read about in a book once. The only thing I've really held onto is that I still say fucking “cheers” as a thank-you (yes, it does annoy the crap out of me that I do that). I don't know. I know that moving back here was the best choice for me and my family but there's also this huge sense of failure. I can't help but think there could have been something we could have done that would have changed everything. But que, sera sera. It still is pretty awesome being back here in the States, in California with the sun, at the pub with all our friends....I just don't know if I have the enthusiasm to write about it just yet.

There have been thoughts about closing down this blog altogether. You know, consider this my expat blog and close the chapter on it. I just can't bring myself to do it quite yet. I still think these damn badgers with their damn knives have something to say, eventually. I have to get over this funk to pull it off though. To find that enthusiasm that makes writing easy and the results somewhat amusing. I'm just not there quite yet unfortunately. For the ¼ of you who have stuck around this long, I thank you. I am almost positively sure that I'll be back here writing regularly again some day soon. Ta-ra (as they say) for now.


  1. Totally Understood. Funks happen and I hope it doesn't stay for long. Just because funks suck and not because I want to nag you to write. I just enjoy your writing and it makes me feel closer to my bestest friend. Maybe we can text to keep in touch. That way you don't have to come up with paragrahs. :) Miss you!


    Please don't feel guilty either. This is your space to do with what you want.

  2. Post-repatriation blahs were expected - by me, anyway. I enjoy your writing, so whenever you get back to it, I'll read. Yes, the ex-pat stuff was great and that's in fact how I found your blog, but I'm pretty sure that whatever you write about will be funny no matter what. Get back in your groove, girl, or find a new groove, and then tell us all about it.

    1. Elaine: That's really sweet of you to say. There are things recently that have inspired me to get back on the blogging wagon so hopefully I'll come up with something soon. Like Monkey Nuts. That was random, wasn't it?

  3. I mightily endorse the writing of a post about Monkey Nuts. And future posts about your quest for bloody marys with unusual add-ins. I gotta know what tops a mini-cheeseburger.